YOU SEE

You see “put together,”

but, inside, she is “falling apart.”

You see “confidant,”

but she eels so very “insecure.”

You see “valuable,”

but she feels “worthless.”

You see “boldness,”

but she feels so very “timid.”

You see “fearless,”

but inside she hides that she is “terrified.”

You see “strong,”

but inside she is “vulnerable to a fault.”

You see, “obedient,”

but she is constantly fighting her own “defiance.”

You see “faithful,”

but inside she is often quite “careless.”

You see “loving,”

but she sees herself as the most “judgmental and apathetic.”

You see “sensitive,”

but she sees her struggle with “indifference.”

You see “free,”

oh but deep within she’s still “bound.”

Virginia Pierce ~ Beautifully Wrecked

You see, you only get to see what she allows you to see, because, to her, the “truth” of what is way down deep within her still is not only embarrassing to her, but can even be shameful. She only allows you see one maybe two sides of her. She won’t show you the side of her that is “unattractive” for fear of rejection and judgement. She is FAR from perfect!

This DOESNOT make her “fake” it makes her grounded and mindful. It makes her wise, for she knows that not everyone is for her. Because of this she tends to keep her “ugly” to herself, locked away until she feels as if she can trust you with that part of her. If you are one that she does chose to let in and you break that trust she tends to lock it back up again and raise the bar for the next.

She is a great work in progress. She is learning daily how to overcome.

You see her daily. You see her as so fierce and strong. You look at her and think “Man, I sure wish I had that endurance and passion!”

But you don’t see her desperate weakness when she is alone before God. The woman that feels more like a little girl. You don’t see her hidden struggles, the healing that has yet to take place. The torment she battles just to have the strength to stand. So she can be the woman you SEE but don’t KNOW.

You see a free and confident woman of God standing before you. You see a woman with no fear and you think to yourself “Wow! What must it be like to be so fearless!?”

Oh, but you DON’T see the crippling and often paralyzing trepidation that she has fought (and continues to fight) off to be able to stand in that freedom. You have no clue the fear that she STILL struggles and fights with just to maintain that freedom. Not one soul has seen the hrs. upon hrs. she’s spent on her face before The Lord. The countless hrs. before The Lord that she has spent in prayer and fasting to gain and maintain that freedom. No one sees the worship she struggles to stay in to keep and maintain her joy alive.

For her, it is not just waking up strong and ready everyday. She fights for her own spirit and soul. Sometimes in EVERY moment of her life. She spend much time before The Lord and stays there as long as she needs to until she may possess her own soul.

Her strength is not hers. It is graciously given by The Lord. It has come from the breaking, crushing, and pressing she has willingly endured to build the very fruitfulness you see before you. She is continuously lying herself down in order to be what she has been called to be.

What you see is NOT her!!! It is The Lord within her! What you see is her weakness made strong in HIM. You see the joy of The Lord for that is her ONLY strength. So, when you see her, do not hold her higher that she ought to be held, but see her where she is. And, when she shows that side you don’t always see…cherish it….and love her in it with grace and mercy. For she is just attempting to be the woman she is called to be in Christ.

Who could ever find a wife like this one— she is a woman of strength and mighty valor! She’s full of wealth and wisdom. The price paid for her was greater than many jewels. Her husband has entrusted his heart to her, for she brings him the rich spoils of victory. All throughout her life she brings him what is good and not evil. She searches out continually to possess that which is pure and righteous. She delights in the work of her hands. She gives out revelation-truth to feed others. She is like a trading ship bringing divine supplies from the merchant. Even in the night season she arises and sets food on the table for hungry ones in her house and for others. She sets her heart upon a nation and takes it as her own, carrying it within her. She labors there to plant the living vines. She wraps herself in strength, might, and power in all her works. She tastes and experiences a better substance, and her shining light will not be extinguished, no matter how dark the night. She stretches out her hands to help the needy and she lays hold of the wheels of government. She is known by her extravagant generosity to the poor, for she always reaches out her hands to those in need. She is not afraid of tribulation, for all her household is covered in the dual garments of righteousness and grace. Her clothing is beautifully knit together— a purple gown of exquisite linen. Her husband is famous and admired by all, sitting as the venerable judge of his people. Even her works of righteousness she does for the benefit of her enemies. Bold power and glorious majesty are wrapped around her as she laughs with joy over the latter days. Her teachings are filled with wisdom and kindness as loving instruction pours from her lips. She watches over the ways of her household and meets every need they have. Her sons and daughters arise in one accord to extol her virtues, and her husband arises to speak of her in glowing terms. “There are many valiant and noble ones, but you have ascended above them all!” Charm can be misleading, and beauty is vain and so quickly fades, but this virtuous woman lives in the wonder, awe, and fear of the Lord. She will be praised throughout eternity . So go ahead and give her the credit that is due, for she has become a radiant woman, and all her loving works of righteousness deserve to be admired at the gateways of every city!

Proverbs 31:10‭-‬31 TPT