
1. My first recollection of being in church was… I’m crying. Why can I not stop crying?
2. The closest I have felt to God in my life was… I always feel closest to God in times of struggle
3. The time I have felt the greatest doubt or distance from God was… wooo (this is a testimony in and of itself) back when I was pastoring the Lord gave me a vision for The Church, at the time I interpreted it as a vision for the church of which I was employed. I was so excited and the more I spoke on it to leadership the more I was shut down and ultimately fired.
“I thought I heard you loud and clear so I followed through. Somehow I ended up here” -Hillary Scott
I ran from God for 3 years after this.
4. If I could thank God for just one incident in my life it would be ______ and why? At this moment in my life it would be that I indeed got fired and had my whole world burnt to the ground. Because I thought I knew Him then. I didn’t. If it hadn’t been for the earth shattering fall from grace I would have never known Him like I do now. I would have never walked in the fullness of my calling. I would have never fulfilled my purpose in this life. Not that I’m doing all those things right now. But I know I’m on the right path.
5. If I could thank God for just one person in my faith journey it would be _______ and why? Man this one’s hard. There’s been a lot of folks over the years that have poured into my journey both good and “bad”. Today I thank God for Dayna Miliam. She has done so much for me without even trying or even intentionally. Just by being who God called her to be and being obedient to her call. She’s helped me sort out truth and dogma. She’s helped me to be okay again. If it wasn’t for her and honorable mention to Tabbi for forcing me to do things I don’t want to that are good for me lol, I’d still be running in a sense.
6. If I could name a turning point in my life for my relationship with God it would be ________ and why? It would be when I started WASOM. I was so bogged down in dogma and shame. I accepted my fate as a fallen black sheep. I was okay with it. But God wasn’t. He brought me back and reignited a flame I thought I’d snuffed out. Ya know, right now I see he had to walk me through the valley of the shadow of death just to show me He will never leave me nor forsake me. I’m not stubborn at all 😅
7. If I had to tell someone why I am a Christian I would have to say
I’ve walked in hell. I’ve lived there. Never once did it deliver the promises it fed my desires. But God himself pulled me from that. He showed me The Way, His way. He loves me. He fulfills every promise he makes. He is dependable, reliable and unmoving. He makes me better. He makes life better.
Why am I a Christian? Because I’ve lived in the dark and was blessed enough to be delivered from it!